January in some pictures..

 

Since I skipped January, no formal catch up, just a few random shots of the last few weeks..

 

Spent most the heat wave in one pool or the other. And first day of school. New activities and sports days. 

 

 Snorkeling out of water.

Athletics day at school. Running for these two meant more fun than actual competitive running. Huge laughs and finishing hand in hand.

 

Day one of school 2013.

 
We walk in the nature reserve where we stay often. And sometimes we meet friends. Love that they can have this.

More swimming and sliding. She was a bit scared, but wanted to go. I said my hand will be there for any last minute nerves or bail outs. By the third time she was: take away your hand now mom, I'm fine.

 Minki chose go down with the mom of one of their friends.. Loved her face each time.

First year ballet for them. I now have three ballet girls. And I'm broke. Their excitement makes up for any bank card coughing.

 

 Hunting for bugs and finding rabbits.

Ice cream. Same pool second day.

Skipping time..

I took some time. I actually took most of January. I sorted through some thoughts, dealt with some shit*, started my 3 at school and all the activities that came with it and looked for work.

So school is great. I have great kids who just love school. With my January time I was able to go to their first sports events, ballet lessons, cheerleading, first parties and teacher meetings.

Now the *shit part. And excuse me calling it that, but it is these things that drain me some days. It's unavoidable and as much as I want to ignore it, I want it done. So I keep threading through lawyer meetings, learning new terms on deceased estates and signing papers. It's almost done. I have been blessed with people helping me out. So hopefully by mid March I can finally look all the way forward.

Work front is still cloudy. Which is frustrating. Why I can't just find a decent oppurtunity is getting me frustrated. I've been independent  and supporting my 3 and me. And I want that back. Only with my luck will every possible bad luck and life events happen in the space of a few months. First my car crash totalling my car (but me fine). Then the dad of my 3 died in a car crash in November.. same month that my contract ended for my project. So yes. dammit. We were fine as I was somewhat prepared, but 3 kids plus school plus holidays plus birthdays etc etc etc adds up and ruins a healthy bank balance. So this has left me dependent until the estate pays out. I don't mind my side of the family as with them it is effortless, non guilt driven and easy. But ugh. Always a other side. I want that part of our relationship to be done. I can smile and nod. But the sad reality. 12 years later, I can honestly say that they do not know me at all. And it shows every time.

So phew. Needed that off my chest. And to happier posts.